Dear Ex Best Friend

Dear ex best friend,

     I miss you. You probably think I don't, seeing that I still post selfies of me smiling widely on my Instagram. But I miss you with my whole being, I wish I could tell you. As I'm writing this, I'm listening to all the songs you sent me with a heavy heart.

     There was a time when you were everything to me. I could tell you everything, and be 100% myself with you. You're the only human on this planet who really knows me, the only one I never had to hide from.

 

     I still think of all our stupid little inside jokes. I would be sitting, remembering everything we had. The jokes, the crushes we talked about, our plans for a future wedding, everything. But then I suddenly remember that you're no longer in my life and I break down crying and it feels too much. I miss you so fucking much.

   

      I have lost a lot of people but none of them compare to you, because losing you was a real loss, one I will always regret. I can't even believe that I had someone as pure as you in my life and let you go.

      Dear ex best friend, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, there were times when I didn't appreciate you, times when I compared my other friends to you, and times when I had wrongfully gotten angry at you and I'm sorry. That day you left me is the worst day in my life and I can't even bear thinking about you and I just miss you so fucking much and I still love you so fucking much and I still hold the hope that one day you will come back because more than anyone else I fucking need you. I'm so sorry.

       You're way happier without me now. You have other best friends, and you're getting closer to other people and I see you've probably moved on and as much as I envy all your other friends, I'm glad you moved on. I wish to see you very happy in the future.

     P.s. if you ever want to come back, even if it's decades from now,  I will always welcome you.

Love,

your ex bestie.